shhh

to the broken-hearts
;ones who don't have an umbrella over their heads when its pouring rain
;ones who don't have the sun shining in their world

are you wondering through shadows?
do you have wounds? do you have scars?
yours seem to be as deep as the ones on jesus' palms
i'll hold your hand to keep it warm this cold winter
don't bottle up those thoughts and feelings
i'll be the one who you can let it all out at
when you're angry, you're more than i can handle but its better than you choosing that end road
the man up there has carved a figure of pure art
but you don't see that, you only see more of an improvement needed
you're still beautiful to me

so sing that song once again
let me hear the voice of your soul that no body else does
so dance to the beat
i've seen you move, it comes right from the heart
talk like no tomorrow
because there will be none

phone >C<

omfg almost holidaysss. SLEEP!!
today my hr teacher came up to me and asked what was wrong cause i looked really pissed but i was just tired
she was like oh you look like your gonna punch someone's face in... she laughed and walked away
ROFL

i need a new phone D: like really bad
i need one now. GRR i hate not having a phone that fully works
hope i get one soon @_@
if i don't get one by the holidays i probably won't go out
don't complain faggots

laters ngs
p.s I NEED A NEW PHONE!!!

pretty effed up day

skipped tutor today to go study at state but i didn't i met up with paulie and kevin at the yellow house
they were playing mt again..
yeah i studied in there and when we were walking around places trying to find shin, khris and daniel
(daniel's a lame kunt, he kept telling me his name was george --')
kevin took me and paulie into myers for perfume and he kept shoving it up our noses when he said that it smelt nice

we to south melbourne beach with shin + daniel + julie + some girl (i didn't catch her name but it started with an 'M') + sercan + khris + kevin + vivian + age
omfg there was a puffer fish and the lil kids were playing with it
paulie bear hugged me and dropped me in the water and my phone and wallet was in my pocket
i fell when he dropped me and my phone stuffed up and my wallet got all wet
phone stuffing up just killed my day
later shit started happening with the adon, sercan, kevin, fitz boys and springy boys
kevin got hurt and that shit just killed my day even more

after when everyone left
went back to mc and hung out with khris, shin and daniel and ate maccas
took the train with khris to essendon and jumped on the 477
jeez we had to wait half an hour for that bus =="
when i came home there was no one
went on msn and chi sent me an offline message saying "hey where were you today :( i missed you so much ;(" and "your the missing part of me :("
lol ngaww i feel so loved
not sure if it was scarcasm or something, but maybe it was...

and i ran into jess from aiken
+ kenny & finally this time he waved to me instead of ignored my presence --'
+ michelle and she was hanging out with the fitz boys
+ justin - i used his phone to call jenny since my was effed up lol

reminiscing

painfully sweet

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i wish i could take it all away
and be the one who catches all your tears

south melbourne beach

on saturday i went south melbourne beach after tutor
caught the train with linda i was about to walk into a carriage but i kenny was in there so i didn't
vinh popped up out of no where and waved to get us to sit with him
kimsa and paul was there too
they were going to galactic circus with kathy and who over was there with her too
me and linda waited in flinders for vivian and julie
and joe, tony and thanh was coming later
then caught the 1 tram to south melbourne beach
as soon as i got there vanessa and peney was calling out my name and susan was there too
we parked our asses near them and i started picking out at their jelly lol
when everyone was in the water i was reading 'the catcher in the rye'
after a while minh bumpt into us with his friends
got bored of the book so i ran into the waters and played around


/ cbf finishing it... so i'll just publish what i have... :P

like bam

i dont know but all of a sudden i feel sad and i feel like crying
you know like things like instant noodles or instant coffee..? well this is like instant sadness
probably instant sadness isn't a real thing (and obviously can't be purchased) but that's the only way i can explain it
it's just outta no where, an emtpy, sad feeling
maybe i just need a good night sleep... and never wake up again
wouldn't that be nice?
i used to have black milk tea with heaps and heaps of sugar when i was feeling down...

i need a hug...

hrmm before i typed 'b*tch, i mean beach'

i was reading chi's blog 'FML' under the november archive
gawd there so depressing ): you really cry a lot
i feel like giving her a hug right now (L)
and yeah tell me what the guy looked like chi, i'll come and get that fucked up douche bag =="
talk to me more on msn bro D:

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now my knees are sore and red and i think swelling... its from knelling in the sand
ouch...

b*tch, i mean beach

hrmm last night i slept over at julie's with linda
we made choc chip cookies at 2 in the morning. we were all high til becca killed our fun
julie fed me a whole glass of expired milk without realising it til the next day
it was slim milk, they don't smell when there expired
the expiry date was 29 october, 2 november was when i drank it
no wonder why my stomach hurt so much...
watched family guy til 3.30-ish

next morning woke up at 10, i think. left the house pretty early, something like 11.30
bought food and then caught the bus to sunshine station, from there to mc
met up with vivian while julie and linda went shopping for a bit
when i met up with vivian we had to wait for her other friend, susan cause she was coming with us
and we sat down at platform 3 and this asian guy walks up to me offers me drugs, he was probably only a couple of years older than me and he looked really familar..
i said no and then he turned to vivian and offered her, she was like wtf no..
it was weird

jumped on the tram to st kilda but we had to take the bus at a certain point cause they were building the tram tracks
played on the beach for a while til around 4 we decided to grab lunch but i had to grab linda and julie's lunch cause they were lazy and replaced the lazy excuse with 'but i wanna tan!'
we got calmari, chips and flake
when we sat down the seagulls came for food
at first we were scared of them but then after we used the food+seagulls for entertainment
fed one of the seagulls my panadol. LOL if the seagulls explodes (:
got ice cream then ran for the bus to go home
omfg red bull ice cream is nice as but i got bailey ice cream
on the bus there was like 4 massive moths D: so scary
when we on the tram to mc we ran into lilian, huyen, jess and vivian
it was lilian's birthday today (: so happy birthday (^)

the sydenham train wasn't coming until 25 minutes later so we got on the werribee train to get to foots
when we got to foots we went around looking for the 410 stop omfg it was on the other side =="
on the bus there was some indian guy who was listening to his ipod and he kept looking at us but mainly susan and then he started laughing
so susan was like what are you laughing at? and the indian guy was so stupid he kept saying huh so susan had to repeat it so many times
when he heard us he said 'your face' in that really broken english-and-indian tone
and then susan started shit with him, then i joined in
when we were about to get off the bus and i passed him i said ' go back to your own country'
he started swearing at me then susan joined in getting back at him
it was so funny cause the bus driver just closed the door and drove off when the indian guy was still trying to get a good come back at us but he couldn't so he just started swearing and stuck up the international fuck you hand signal
me and susan swore at him til i couldn't see his face anymore
i saw people on the bus just staring at him. i feel sorry for them, travelling on the bus with him, now everyone knows that his a crazy indian dickhead
i laughed after that

we walked to siobhan's house, one of julie's friends
played with the piano, questioned why there was so many buddhist statues in her house when she was cocasian and i played with her dog, coco with susan
i picked up coco and accidently touched his saggy, doggy balls... yeah his really old too
coco was so cute but he really smelled... like dog
there was a random lil asian kid sitting on the couch playing with msn...
apparently it was her mum's boyfriend's kid

we walked back to julie's house after that to find, becca, jaman and her cocasian boyfriend named julius
my parents came over cause they were 5 minute drive away from there and they talked to julie's parents for a really long time while me and julie, susan, vivian and linda talked about random crap
my parents took vivian and susan to viv's house and then linda home and now im here (: