Came to a realisation

I know why I just wouldn't let it go. You said you loved me, but not anymore. I had been given a chance that was being concealed with the lies you told me so you wouldn't be exposed. I thought, if I was given that chance, why couldn't I get it back? A second chance. Naive.
One day, out of no where I wrote you a letter. I closed my eyes, took a deep breath, and I let go. A while after I gave you that letter, I realised why I wouldn't let go. I finally understood. I was so scared. It was because I was scared of letting go of the memories, the feelings, the one thing that everyone looks for in life - love. I didn't know what it was at first until I had passed what I feared. You had moved on and now it was my turn. I defeated it.
Sometimes in life, people let go, they move on and let go of the past. You let go to allow something better to come in your life. Some people were meant to fall in love with each other but not meant to be together. Letting go doesn't mean you give up, but rather accepting that there are things that cannot be. Pain and misfortune touches everyone, always try to turn it into something positive.
I may have said I wish I had never met you, but that's not true. Despite the pain, I'm very thankful to have met you. Grateful.
Slowly I'm unraveling things, understanding and mapping my own soul. Learning life lessons. This was one that I mustn't forget.