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today was a pretty good day and ima blog about it whether you like it or not gay kunts (:

urhhh... i was waiting in the rain for the bus this morning like at... 10 and it was spitting, not hardcore raining so i stood behind the electricity pole. LOL. i looked like a damned faggot ahahaa but at least it kept me from getting wetter than i was.

idk i just jumped on the train without getting a zone 1 ticket, couldnt be fucked. i sat down near the end of the carriage and there was a group of 3 cocasian girls in front of me, probably around 17 years-old. 2 of the 3 girls were facing me and the other one i couldnt see. the first girl next to the window, had a light brown coloured hair with a lot of foundation on her face, which i could see from 6 meters away. the second girl kept looking at me and she had straight, black, short hair. the third girl hardly turned around, but only when she caught the seconds girls eyes looking in my direction but she looked. she was the prettiest, probably cause i didnt have to look at her face so much as the other two. LMAO

when i sat down all 3 of them turned and looked at me and giggled. i knew they were talking about me or something.
i was like 'urhh. wth? eh fuck em, cant be bothered with them'.
i ignored them til 3 stops later when these 3 ugly rockers came on the carriage. they stared at the girls and then walked in my direction and by the look on their faces, they were definitly gonna try to make a move on them and the girls also knew so they started laughing. the rockers sat somewhere behind me.

after a couple of stops, the ugliest guy (#1) gets up, walks past me and sits in the seats of 4 next to the girls. ugliest guy #1 swings his arms around wildly enough to catch his friends' attention but also make it look like he wasn't doing anything. yeah and the arm waving shit failed but his friends decided to sit next to him.
the ugly rockers tried to talk loud so the girls could hear but the whole effin carriage could hear it.

ugly guy #2 'oh yeah what about that kick ass beach shit your talking about? the thing you went to? i hear it was cool as'
ugly guy #1 'urhhh... OH that! right... um... yeah it was awesome. there was hot babes diggin me an--'
the girls laughed historically
ugly guy #2 'umm excuse me? but are you laughing at us?'
ugly guy #3 'urhh yeah are you?'
ugly guy #1 'thats not very nice you know? we're trying to have a conversation here'
girl #2 'oh nothing.. we're not laughing at you...'
the girls nod and giggle.

after 5 seconds it was quite and i was about to burst out laughing at how crap these guys were at making a move. i could fucking do better, ive learnt from the master... TUCKER MAX. lol jokes but i could still do better.
i looked at the second girl and she caught me eye. she mouthed words to me and she kept making eye signals for me to move closer to her, as close as sitting in the seat in front of her. LOL
i got up and started slowly, SLOWLY walking to the doors. the girls turned and stared at me, started whispering and then they stopped. the third girl whispered something to the second and she started making eye signals again. the rockers just went silent and stared at me, then back at the girls.
then the train stopped, doors went *beep, beep, beep* the girls were expecting me to come and sit down but i walked out. ROFLMAO. i knew that they were all like wtf.

when the train was about to leave i looked into the carriage windows and i could see the 3 girls laughing and waving to me like no tomorrow. i was like ngaww they love me LOL so i waved back and mouthed the word 'bye'. the girls sitting closest to the window saw and they were like 'omfg we got a wave back ahahahaa'

i got on the 82 tram, stopped in front of hp and walked to jenny's place. i rang the door bell twice and looked up.. there was an effin hole in the roof big enough to fit a fat person in there. yeah she smelt like bed cause i just woke her up. teehee. lol jenny tackled me so i wouldnt go in her room cause it was messy but i just pulled her in with me and it was messy. i gave her something that i wrote for her. she read it, cried and tried to hide the tears under her sheets. lol. not cry as in a bad way, i think she was happy or something, not sure. lol it wasnt my fault, didnt think that she would cry.




grrr cant be fucked writing the rest of this. screw it. this is all im typing. someday i might be stuffed writing the rest of this... which is most likely not to happen..
peace out

*sigh

im just too late. i wish i hadn't of said those words, cause if i hadn't, we would be. GRR! fuck. im effiin kicking myself in the ass for that everyday! but if i did then i would never get over you.

well, at least i know for sure who your first love was..

laugh it off

this is shattering shit
lollipops... here i come
make me slowly die
ima fucking [read title] even though it hurts
tryna keep everything in and together
(: smile everyday peoples
its aights to let it out once in a while. it's part of being human
we're all trying to map our soul

friends?

i wish i had friends. i do, but... how do i know if they really are or not? am i being back stabbed? where are the friends to go out and spend time with? what am i to people?
i know for sure that i am obnoxious

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wow i havnt writen a blog in a while... :3
its time to make one again :D
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good bye linh loi nguyen have a safe&fun trip to jpn
hrmmm...
um... well its almost the end of school?
i cant wait even though im probably not gonna do anything cause
1. im lazy
2. i hardly talk to anyone anymore for them to invite me out
now that i look at reason number 2 i seriously dont know who to turn to if things go wrong ): even if they say 'i'll be there for you if you need me' it seems like i will be a burden to them if i do turn to them

right now im listening to epik high songs
i effin love their songs, the beats, the raps, the lyrics, i dont know its good
i really like their love songs. so emo lol but it expresses what i feel
urhhh..
i dont know but i felt really down today and i didn't talk much in school
i felt really bad since yesterday on the train i know i hurt kathy D:
im sorryyyy kathy if you ever read this!
and im scared if jenny might change her views on me now
ahaha my mum just made me dinner and bought it into my room. she thinks that im doing homework but im actually writting this
anyways today after school it was effin raining
and you know what? i walked by myself to station cause 'friends' didnt wait for me and walked without me
i feel so loved
i decided to go through the front gate cause if i went through the back gate my foot would get soaked but either way my left foot got a bath in its shoe (yes it has a massive hole)
even before half way down the road that the school is on i was soaking
my hair was dripping, my blazer smelt like dog, my foot felt mushy and you know what else happens?
some random middle eastern faggot decides to drive in the puddle held together by the speed hump and gutters
this tsunami sized wave splashes on me and makes me even more wet than i am. i stood there for one second, looked at myself and held out my arms and said 'what the fuck you fucking kunt?'. i was about to run after the car and yell out a few curse words but he reversed, apologised and asked if i was okay. i smiled and said yeah since he had the decency to do that, but watch out kunt one day if im driving in my car and i see you riding a bike on the road.. ohh im gonna god damn hit you over and knock your brains out with my baseball bat.
well after that i crossed that hectik campus road or whatever its called, i headed down the station and my mum calls me and omfg i couldnt even grab my phone out of my pocket. i was that soaked that my pants held onto my hand. yes, it sounds like magic but thats what happened. more like gripped. i told my mum to pick me at the library at 5 and i started walking there.

i found alyssa in there and she said omfg your soaked. no i shit i was and she laughed and just pointed to her umbrella ): i got something to eat from broady and walked back to matt, alyssa and the other dude (i forgot his name) on the comps then got told off by the security guard for being at the comp with too many people. went up stairs to study instead but effin hell the tables were taken too so i sat on the couchs and it felt really weird cause i was wet from head to toe and it felt like some cold water bubble was surrounding me with a wet diaper.

when the tables were free i literally tackled the table and the chairs surrounding it claiming it was mine and yelled out that anyone who touchs it will die getting butt fucked by me (exaggeration). nah well i did get a seat at one with alyssa and i was in a 'cant-be-fucked/fuck-my-life' mode so i randomly started calling people but when they did pick up i wasnt bothered to talk so i just hung up on them. hrmm.. yeah i went home.. and this is where i am now, typing this while listening to epik high. cbf typing anymore. me needs to shhhhower

peace out hommiees (L)