Rest In Peace Jimmy Nguyen.
hey jimmy, did you see us at south melbourne beach on the 30th of december 2009? hehe i thought that, of everyone coming that day for you but kathy and kimsa told everyone to come so yeah but anyways hoped you liked seeing our faces there for you. oh, oh and did you see that photo that kathy, han, rachael, lyn and i took in photoplus? ahahaha. we took that for you! i usually wouldn't go in there but it was for you so it was okay.
remembering back you would always ask 'who is this?' on msn even though you were the one who added me in msn -- lol. the last time i saw you was when you were hanging out with melissa and your friends at ed hardy's playing pool. even though melissa called me back to say hi to you, i wish i would have given you a bigger hi to scare you and for the memory. i never knew it would be the last time i would see you or talk to you.
man on new years eve/day i was having drinks for you. ahahahaa then i started throwing up in the toilet for a looong time.. embarrassing... ahaha but when i was sobbering up i got scared of dying and i started to say my prayers for you and every one, i hope you heard them and you look out for us all down here.
i will always remember you and you will be greatly missed by all.
wait for me up there, so then we can really talk, kick back and catch up on everything to make up for the time we've lost down here.
love you lots and hope to see you soon jimmy <3
i don't like anyone right now and no one likes me back and im kinda happy, well happier than before when i did like someone, i feel free maybe this is just a sort of small phase, when im happy then all of a sudden i feel lonely and depressed. life is just crazy man...
to the broken-hearts
;ones who don't have an umbrella over their heads when its pouring rain
;ones who don't have the sun shining in their world
are you wondering through shadows?do you have wounds? do you have scars?yours seem to be as deep as the ones on jesus' palms
i'll hold your hand to keep it warm this cold winter
don't bottle up those thoughts and feelings
i'll be the one who you can let it all out at
when you're angry, you're more than i can handle but its better than you choosing that end road
the man up there has carved a figure of pure art
but you don't see that, you only see more of an improvement needed
you're still beautiful to me
so sing that song once again
let me hear the voice of your soul that no body else does
so dance to the beat
i've seen you move, it comes right from the heart
talk like no tomorrow
because there will be none
omfg almost holidaysss. SLEEP!!
today my hr teacher came up to me and asked what was wrong cause i looked really pissed but i was just tired
she was like oh you look like your gonna punch someone's face in... she laughed and walked away
ROFL
i need a new phone D: like really bad
i need one now. GRR i hate not having a phone that fully works
hope i get one soon @_@
if i don't get one by the holidays i probably won't go out
don't complain faggots
laters ngs
p.s I NEED A NEW PHONE!!!
skipped tutor today to go study at state but i didn't i met up with paulie and kevin at the yellow house
they were playing mt again..
yeah i studied in there and when we were walking around places trying to find shin, khris and daniel
(daniel's a lame kunt, he kept telling me his name was george --')
kevin took me and paulie into myers for perfume and he kept shoving it up our noses when he said that it smelt nice
we to south melbourne beach with shin + daniel + julie + some girl (i didn't catch her name but it started with an 'M') + sercan + khris + kevin + vivian + age
omfg there was a puffer fish and the lil kids were playing with itpaulie bear hugged me and dropped me in the water and my phone and wallet was in my pocket
i fell when he dropped me and my phone stuffed up and my wallet got all wet
phone stuffing up just killed my day
later shit started happening with the adon, sercan, kevin, fitz boys and springy boys
kevin got hurt and that shit just killed my day even more
after when everyone left
went back to mc and hung out with khris, shin and daniel and ate maccas
took the train with khris to essendon and jumped on the 477
jeez we had to wait half an hour for that bus =="
when i came home there was no one
went on msn and chi sent me an offline message saying "hey where were you today :( i missed you so much ;(" and "your the missing part of me :("
lol ngaww i feel so loved
not sure if it was scarcasm or something, but maybe it was...
and i ran into jess from aiken
+ kenny & finally this time he waved to me instead of ignored my presence --'
+ michelle and she was hanging out with the fitz boys
+ justin - i used his phone to call jenny since my was effed up lol
i wish i could take it all away
and be the one who catches all your tears
on saturday i went south melbourne beach after tutor
caught the train with linda i was about to walk into a carriage but i kenny was in there so i didn't
vinh popped up out of no where and waved to get us to sit with him
kimsa and paul was there too
they were going to galactic circus with kathy and who over was there with her too
me and linda waited in flinders for vivian and julie
and joe, tony and thanh was coming later
then caught the 1 tram to south melbourne beach
as soon as i got there vanessa and peney was calling out my name and susan was there too
we parked our asses near them and i started picking out at their jelly lol
when everyone was in the water i was reading 'the catcher in the rye'
after a while minh bumpt into us with his friends
got bored of the book so i ran into the waters and played around
/ cbf finishing it... so i'll just publish what i have... :P
i dont know but all of a sudden i feel sad and i feel like crying
you know like things like instant noodles or instant coffee..? well this is like instant sadness
probably instant sadness isn't a real thing (and obviously can't be purchased) but that's the only way i can explain it
it's just outta no where, an emtpy, sad feeling
maybe i just need a good night sleep... and never wake up again
wouldn't that be nice?
i used to have black milk tea with heaps and heaps of sugar when i was feeling down...
i need a hug...
i was reading chi's blog 'FML' under the november archive
gawd there so depressing ): you really cry a lot
i feel like giving her a hug right now (L)
and yeah tell me what the guy looked like chi, i'll come and get that fucked up douche bag =="
talk to me more on msn bro D:
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now my knees are sore and red and i think swelling... its from knelling in the sand
ouch...
hrmm last night i slept over at julie's with linda
we made choc chip cookies at 2 in the morning. we were all high til becca killed our fun
julie fed me a whole glass of expired milk without realising it til the next day
it was slim milk, they don't smell when there expired
the expiry date was 29 october, 2 november was when i drank it
no wonder why my stomach hurt so much...
watched family guy til 3.30-ish
next morning woke up at 10, i think. left the house pretty early, something like 11.30
bought food and then caught the bus to sunshine station, from there to mc
met up with vivian while julie and linda went shopping for a bit
when i met up with vivian we had to wait for her other friend, susan cause she was coming with us
and we sat down at platform 3 and this asian guy walks up to me offers me drugs, he was probably only a couple of years older than me and he looked really familar..
i said no and then he turned to vivian and offered her, she was like wtf no..
it was weird
jumped on the tram to st kilda but we had to take the bus at a certain point cause they were building the tram tracks
played on the beach for a while til around 4 we decided to grab lunch but i had to grab linda and julie's lunch cause they were lazy and replaced the lazy excuse with 'but i wanna tan!'
we got calmari, chips and flake
when we sat down the seagulls came for food
at first we were scared of them but then after we used the food+seagulls for entertainment
fed one of the seagulls my panadol. LOL if the seagulls explodes (:
got ice cream then ran for the bus to go home
omfg red bull ice cream is nice as but i got bailey ice cream
on the bus there was like 4 massive moths D: so scary
when we on the tram to mc we ran into lilian, huyen, jess and vivian
it was lilian's birthday today (: so happy birthday (^)
the sydenham train wasn't coming until 25 minutes later so we got on the werribee train to get to foots
when we got to foots we went around looking for the 410 stop omfg it was on the other side =="
on the bus there was some indian guy who was listening to his ipod and he kept looking at us but mainly susan and then he started laughing
so susan was like what are you laughing at? and the indian guy was so stupid he kept saying huh so susan had to repeat it so many times
when he heard us he said 'your face' in that really broken english-and-indian tone
and then susan started shit with him, then i joined in
when we were about to get off the bus and i passed him i said ' go back to your own country'
he started swearing at me then susan joined in getting back at him
it was so funny cause the bus driver just closed the door and drove off when the indian guy was still trying to get a good come back at us but he couldn't so he just started swearing and stuck up the international fuck you hand signal
me and susan swore at him til i couldn't see his face anymore
i saw people on the bus just staring at him. i feel sorry for them, travelling on the bus with him, now everyone knows that his a crazy indian dickhead
i laughed after that
we walked to siobhan's house, one of julie's friends
played with the piano, questioned why there was so many buddhist statues in her house when she was cocasian and i played with her dog, coco with susan
i picked up coco and accidently touched his saggy, doggy balls... yeah his really old too
coco was so cute but he really smelled... like dog
there was a random lil asian kid sitting on the couch playing with msn...
apparently it was her mum's boyfriend's kid
we walked back to julie's house after that to find, becca, jaman and her cocasian boyfriend named julius
my parents came over cause they were 5 minute drive away from there and they talked to julie's parents for a really long time while me and julie, susan, vivian and linda talked about random crap
my parents took vivian and susan to viv's house and then linda home and now im here (:
some where during 2008 my lil cousin jessie almost died, i think she was 1 year old or less
yeah i was scared for her, i thought it just happened like, right now just happened
but it wasn't, it was actually 5 hours after it happened when i heard it and i thought she was in hospital cause my aunty and grandma said that the ambulance came
yeah apparently jessie choked on either her saliva or her snot. most likely the snot
i think she choked for 2 minutes and grandma just patted her really hard on the back and like she swallowed it...
yeah saved by a really hard pat by grandma
wouldn't it by funny if i died from choking on my own saliva? when im fully conscious? and suddenly i stop and just choke on my own saliva and die? ROFL
that was the last time
i will kill myself if i ever again make direct contact
like... awibfasidbfajsdbf
i don't wanna know, i don't wanna know anything at all
- fuck it
- don't be trippin
- just walk the other way
- act like you don't care
- don't know you
- ...
yeah after tutor and getting told off by the fob supervisors, i went to huy's place with linda
huy's place: restaurant called 'chili pepper'
search it up on google maps, you get the location and the phone number. you could totally stalk him (Y)
so get him ladies... or guys... while his hot and single LOL
walked a bit to his place after my mum dropped as off
laughed at him cause he doesn't have copy of the key to his front gate
so we walked to his back gate
walked up stairs to his house (downstairs is his restaurant)
jinno just asked me to put him in this blog, so here you are
mucked around and play with his things in his room
his room and facking awesome ): why can't i have an awesome room??
after we got bored we walked around puckle street for a bit before sitting down and eating at a restaurant
i ordered lasagna. omfg it was sooo good *drools*
linda and huy wanted to go to queen park to go on the swings and lose weight lol so we did
there was so many weddings there, probably like 3
first we walked around the park then we sat down at a grassy area behind a wedding
and we just sunbaked for a while then we started doing cartwheels, handstands and baby freeze
lmao people were staring at us
huy was laying down in between me and linda so started pulling out the grass and putting it on his shirt, making grass nipples, grass snail trail, grass hairy chest and grass pubical hair
i accidently got some dirt into his eyes+nose and he started screaming cause it hurt :D lol sorry huy. he kept sneezing after
we also played with some lil lady bug that i found
oh lol we played marco polo using huy's school tie as a blindfold that linda accidently bought with her before
linda was 'it' and huy and me found 2 piles of dog shit
yeah you know what were trying to do. make linda step into it
we couldn't help but laugh everytime we tried
LOL it was so funny we let linda walk into the wedding that we were playing behind. well, almost. there was a garden there to separate the two areas
when linda said marco i was in front of her with the dog shit in between us and huy standing behind linda
i said polo and linda's face expression was like omfg your in front of me, im totally gonna get you
and linda stepped into the dog shit ROFLMAO
since huy was behind her he saw everything and he just pissed himself laughing and linda was like wtf, so she took off the tie
she looked at huy
huy was pointing at the dog shit and laughing
i dont think linda knew what he was laughing at
me: omfg did she step into the dog shit?
huy nods
i also piss myself laughing
linda: what?
linda was wtf. looking at the dog shit that she stepped on, she started to scrub her slip-ons on the grass
after that, we really didn't want to lay on the grass any more cause.. yeah..
one of us suggested hide-and-seek in the whole park and i voluntered to be 'it'
i counted up to 50. walked around and these 2 caucasians looked at me and nodded towards a little stone building in memory of someone
at first i didn't know what they were talking about til they whispered 'his hiding behind it' LOL and i found huy behind it
when we were looking for linda i told him how i found him
huy's reaction: WTF? THATS UNFAIR ):
i made linda 'it' since strangers helped me find him
when it was linda's turn me and huy full on dashed for the two massive trees
this round was so funny cause no matter how much me and huy kept turning around to peek at linda she couldn't see us (she didn't have her glasses) despite how many times she looked straight at us
me and huy kept pissing ourselves laughing and decided to kinda like stalk her
we ran through gardens before linda found us
yeah she found me first cause my shirt was flambount and huy full on just like fell to the ground and became a human mat when he saw linda look our way
next was huy's turn
and he found linda in seconds i was kinda like in the toilets
apparently linda saw a guy on the stairs who looked like huy or something so she made a huge dash to the toilets
but huy was on the right side of her, a couple of meters away just watching linda run like crazy ROFLMAO
i was about to text huy to not even bother finding me since i was in the toilets but there was no toilet paper so was like WTF?? BUT I REALLY NEED TO GO!! and i walked out to find huy and linda looking for me
i yelled out: I NEED TO GO TOILET
huy and linda: omfg me too!!!
yeah so huy was like okay lets go to the toilets in kmart (:
after we walked back to huy's house, huy suggested we climbed on to his roof
he broke the shoe cabinet while trying to climb through the window LOL
when i was on the roof i found 50 cents. LOL im an asian, aights?!?!? :L
we went to huy's room and sat down on his couch. we were like dead.
me and linda played guitar heroes together; linda doing the buttons and me strumming while huy was sorta sleeping on my shoulder
and so the highlight of today... everything (: it was awesoooomeee
eh today i stayed home cause yeah.. i got the flu...
i feel so effin dead. i hate being sick
my sister decided to be a fat elephant before she left the house for work =="
which woke me up at 7.40
i fell asleep and woke up at 11.30
stayed in bed for a while
then got out and ate and watched dr. phil
wished there was still jerry springer on
man, springer thinks that his helping people but all his doing is making matters worse. thats why that show was so unintentionally funny LOL
went back to sleep and then my dad was smashing everything around which woke me up
downloaded music
then my dad went to work and my mum came home from work
my mum sat in my room talking about her hairy legs and she left my door open so a fly came buzzing in
she was like omfg quick get it into the blinds so i can get it out
i just walked out of my room got the electric fly swatter. its like in the shape of a tennis racket
my mum just stared at me in disbelief and said: i knew i shouldn't of bought that. now you go around killing innocent insects! thats bad
ROFLMAO
man my religious mother
i really didn't like tennis until my mum got this. the swatter thingie ma bobbie makes tennis seem so easy, i think i might give it a try
yeah gotta goooo study now
yesterday it was the year 12 graduation, so the school dismissed us at 12.25 (:
i called my bro to take me home from school to get my meds, he said that he would be there in 10 minutes but more like 20. soooo i waited at the station with everyone
omfg bao's gf, tina came to see him+his gf's 2 friends, vanessa and some other girl (i forgot her name). ngaww. so cute
me and kimsa planned to record us dancing in random shops at high point, but my camera ran outta batteries. FAIL
bao, tina and her friends, yohan, david, vinh were like oh yeah we'll go to high point too!
me and kimsa: okay but you guys catch public transport and we'll go by car
them: WHY??? where the hell is our ride? can we come?
me: you can't. my bro is driving me. LOL
they jumped on the train first and me and kimsa went to go look for my bro's car. lol kimsa was like WHERE? WHERE? WHEEEEREEE? i don't see no white car!!!
me: THE GOD DAMNED AURION!! white. don't worry. god, it's over there...
kimsa: oh okay i see it now (:
when we got to my place kimsa jumped out of the car cause she really wanted to see my house
we got inside and she saw my fish tank and forcingly suggested that i should name one of the fishes 'kimsa junior' ROFL
when we got to high point kimsa texted vinh to ask where they were and vinh texted back saying: oh we're in the city...
OMFG i was... grrr! they could of told us ==" lol kimsa was yeah too
we got in high point and kimsa changed
then we were like... arhh... what now?
kimsa got new ear rings cause she lost hers and then later some how magically my black loop ear ring fell off my ear =="
kimsa really wanted to go to the place where i got my piercings so we headed to footscray
on the tram to footscray
kimsa: i dont wanna go get the piercing anymore
me: you asshole! we came here for nothing then??
kimsa: D: yes?
me: NO! you said that you really wanted to get them so you are. i didn't come here for nothing
kimsa: okay.. ):
ROFLMAO
on our way to the foots station i ran into hammy, jenny's bestfriend and steph
got to mc and ran into, jazon, nugget, minh, a girl named emily and some guy
me and kimsa met vinh and the others under the mc clock
then we went to que city and played pool
later minh, jazon, nugget and the other guy came to play too
omfg nugget concentrates so much when his playing lol
2hours later when went back to the mc station cause everyone needed to go home
the first train was too packed so we waited for the next one and while we were waiting minh, nugget and jazon came down to go on the train with us
david bought bubblecup and i drank it and then when i was going to give it back i was like oh shit. david im sick lol
so he gave it to me (:
tina really wanted to stay with bao so she+her friends also jumped on the craigieburn line with us
when i finised my drink i didn't want to hold on to it anymore so i was like eyyy jazon you wanna run out and throw this out for me when we get to north melbourne?
jazon was like yeahhh okay
but then we standing on the side where the doors didn't open so jazon just forced the doors open and chucked it out while it was still moving lolol
got off at broady station with tina, vanessa, the other girl (LOL i forgot her name XD), vinh and bao
vinh and bao went their way and i walked the lil year8's to the other side of the station
ngaww tina was crying D: probably cause she was gonna miss bao a lot
gave vanessa my msn?
then went home
lol huy randomly called me cause he was at the park trying to run laps
if yo horny, lets do it, ride it, my pony, my saddle's waiting, come on, jump on it
reymar had a battle with the year 12 micky and tony
that was cool (Y)
and kathy c-walked in her dress! ROFLMAOOO
we made her
she turned to me and said "only if you break dance"
twah "okay (:"
i didn't break dance in the end
LOL
today jinno hooked davis' lock on the side of the bin at the start of the recess
sandy and davis was fighting to get the lock and they accidentally knocked into the bin
you see... you really dont want to stick your hand in there and get it out
the hole to put rubbish in isn't really that big and the bins in my school are probably the most disgusting you will ever come across. there's bird shit everywhere on it and around it
sooo yeah.. this is when hobos come in handy. pay them a couple of bucks and they'll fish it out fo ya
at the end of recess davis was like "oh yeah.. my lock is still in the bin" greasies jinno
jinno just laughed.. LOL
we+maryanne spent the first 20 minutes of period 5 (science) trying to get it out
the lid of the bin is at the bottom so you have to put something else under to catch the rubbish
we couldn't get a wheelie bin cause our lockers were up stairs and there was no one was using the classrooms there
so we had to run around to find one
and we were laughing and screaming like 5 year olds and surprisingly no one walked out of the surrounding classrooms to tell us off
when we got another bin we put it under it and stared at it.. we didn't know how to open it... LOL
so we started randomly kicking it, hoping that it might magically just open
jinno "oh just screw it. just wait for one of those janitors to get it out"
davis greasies jinno "you were the one who put it in there"
jinno "no i didn't. i hooked it, you knocked it in there"
davis laughes "ahahaha fuck my life"
maryanne "lets just keep kicking it (:"
twah "wth? what if it breaks?"
maryanne "there might be a button!"
davis "a button? oh yeah maybe. where?"
jinno "behind the bin?"
twah "wtf? asiff theres a button. that's so stupid"
maryanne laughs "yeah but we can't open it"
jinno "davis just stick your hand in there and get it out"
davis "no way man! thats.. thats.. gross!!"
jinno "fine i'll do it"
and so, we went through davis locker to get a piece of paper but the only thing we could find was the plastic pocket covering for books that we got today
the plastic thing wasnt very good... i didn't really cover your hand but jinno still stuck his hand in there
and yeah a minute later he pulled it out and dropped it on the ground
davis was freaking out. he wanted jinno to go run and drop it in the sinks ROFL
twah "omfg LOL just pick it up!!"
davis "NO WAY. EWW what if i get infected?? i don't want to die!"
twah "ey but thats your lock"
jinno "okay lets go to class now.."
davis "but, but my lock?"
LOL davis ended up picking it up and putting it back on his locker
we took like 5 minutes speed walking to our class
and that's all the way on the other side of the school =="
my school's big
we snuck in to class without being noticed
then i was facebooking on my phone so my teacher took it off me and gave my phone into the office and said that i could have it back at the end of the day ):
you know what? i can't wait for summer holidays its gonna be better than last year's forsho, but really.. no diggity . i really need one of those count downs for the last day thingie. ima search up the gadget on google desktop add-ons
laters <3
fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck this week has been pretty shit for me =="
i can't sleep, i can't get outta bed, i get ready for school late, i can't concentrate
grrr just this whole week it's just been miserable
i just can't get you outta my system
i shouldn't have given so much to you cause now everything reminds me of you
i guess life hasn't been all ladida like it use to be since the start of the year or maybe more, like the start of high school
well i am and was happy, but i mean life could have been less of a bitch
lol i should have taken those dumb fucked up counselling sessions but it's usually (most likely) those counsellors are only more depressed than me and are taking sessions themselves
i think ALL counsellors should have a life coach or better yet life insurance
anyways i don't need sessions, i never did and i never will
ahaha nisa's talking to me... scary i dont want her to kill me LOL
got so much shit to do... so laters ngs
i wouldn't want to rewind back to the time to change things but i would give it another try if it were possible.
how do i say this?
umm...
i would rather live with pain of memoriesi believe that no memory is worth forgetting even if it is the most painful
don't regret or run away from memories but try really hard to turn them into something positive
the other night i sent this text to some people on my contacts list...
random shit lol D: needed to go toilet so i did and yeah i obviously went to the toilet, i don't bed wet thanks =="
my bathroom door was opened and i was like 'it's so noisy and i see something scary in there. mind as well turn on the lights since i can't see jack shit' i turned them on but it kept flickering and it wouldn't stop i was shitting my pantsu, i thought something was gonna jump out at me.
i almost cried ;_; but i took it like a man, screamed like a lil bitch and ran back to my room.
lol jokes i turned it off, turned on another one and took a leak and went back to room calmy.
that really did just happened and i wanted someone to know just in case there was something there hunting me down :) if i died then you would know, i know im cool&you love me
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well the people who i sent it to said that it was funny
i remember steph saying that she pissed herself laughing for 5 minutes or something LOL
well the next night (morning, at like 2) i was in the bathroom and i turned off the light (another one that i put in there) i was going back to my room and i walked straight into the door
i know sounds stupid but it was pitch black i couldn't see jackshit
and now, as in this night, i was looking down my msn list and i looked at kathy's nik
it said.. 'tea ; i cant believe i jst walked into the wall ._.'
i say to her 'i cant believe i just walked into the door'
kathy replies back 'i cant believe i just walked into the fridge'
me 'LOL wtf? and sometimes when i get too lazy, i do half purposely/half accidently walk into walls then yell at the wall to move outta the way..'
kathy 'ROFL. sad.'
and yeah i just get too lazy sometimes and when im walking somewhere towards a wall and i know im gonna hit into it. i try to move slightly to change my direction, but when that fails... i wish so hard (that my eyes pop outta the sockets) that the wall will somehow magically move, but obviously reality isnt like that so i end up walking into it...
LOL yes, i know im cool thats why you love me (:
- just listen to 'remember the time'
by trey songz
baby i cant even front sometimes i have days
where i really miss your love and it drives me crazyy
to see you in the arms of another man, livin out ya plans
plans that we made together
such a shame
we ended up this way
deciding that we're better off with others
so if he gives you something i can't
girl im ok with that
caz at the end of the day
all i have to say is
girl your my heart
you could be with him for life
that dont change the fact that im your first love
and im so sure
i could date another girl and more
that don't change the fact that your my first love
hesus it was boring as fuck
this is the last time im going there for the moon fest
a lot of people were there but i wasn't stuffed saying hi to most of them (:
me and linda just went down the hill and just started a fire for like about 40 minutes
when we got bored we put it out walked back to the main
reallyy boring... --'
so boring i was reading tuckermax on my phone
got home at like... i think it was 8:30 - 9:00? not sure
before that my mum took home justin and linda
started randomly practising then got bored so i phoned steph cause i wanted to sing to her OO,
steph was basically dead... like sleepy dead lol
i sang to her and she laughed.. at one point
but she told me that it was cute and adorable :)
got off the phone with her when my dad made dinner at 11:30
then took a shower at 1
now im here.. and im bored...
baaaah sheepie today was nhi's birthday party at st kilda beach
it was aights, JUST aights i thought it was gonna be more different like more hectik, more screams, more drinks, faster cooking food lol
i friggen had to cook the food ): not fun
met a few new peoples, i guess?
i got tipsy NOT drunk
(now im talking to kelly on the phone?)
(okay now im talking to jenny on the phone?)
eh back to this...
there was a fucking bitch there and i said hi
she said: 'what the fuck? are you effin drunk?' and then she snobbed me off just for saying hi
and i was not drunk, i was tipsy, i can even make a recount of everything that happened
bitch... >>
kimsa, kathy, linda, jenny and me went to mc
kimsa and kathy got maccas cause they were hungry, and jenny wolfed down the fries lol
jenny got on the train first
then we did...
i was sitting with kimsa and i told her move to the next seat so it could be more spacey for me, since i was sort of lying on her
me and kimsa was talking.. yeah.. about random crap
when we got off at broady station kimsa just remembered that she forgot her wallet on there
we informed the connex people at the office
they checked for us but they didnt find anything
so we got back on the train and checked ourselves... and found jack shit
i was about to start shit with these guys on there cause when i first asked them 'have you seen a wallet around here?' they said 'yeah. urh no..?' i thought they were fucking with me ==" fucking bitches..
my mum picked us up at glenroy then drove us to the police station
kimsa filled out some forms
my mum took kathy and kimsa to kimsa's house
then linda home
...
i feel so fucking dead...
catch (L)
today was a pretty good day and ima blog about it whether you like it or not gay kunts (:
urhhh... i was waiting in the rain for the bus this morning like at... 10 and it was spitting, not hardcore raining so i stood behind the electricity pole. LOL. i looked like a damned faggot ahahaa but at least it kept me from getting wetter than i was.
idk i just jumped on the train without getting a zone 1 ticket, couldnt be fucked. i sat down near the end of the carriage and there was a group of 3 cocasian girls in front of me, probably around 17 years-old. 2 of the 3 girls were facing me and the other one i couldnt see. the first girl next to the window, had a light brown coloured hair with a lot of foundation on her face, which i could see from 6 meters away. the second girl kept looking at me and she had straight, black, short hair. the third girl hardly turned around, but only when she caught the seconds girls eyes looking in my direction but she looked. she was the prettiest, probably cause i didnt have to look at her face so much as the other two. LMAO
when i sat down all 3 of them turned and looked at me and giggled. i knew they were talking about me or something.
i was like 'urhh. wth? eh fuck em, cant be bothered with them'.
i ignored them til 3 stops later when these 3 ugly rockers came on the carriage. they stared at the girls and then walked in my direction and by the look on their faces, they were definitly gonna try to make a move on them and the girls also knew so they started laughing. the rockers sat somewhere behind me.
after a couple of stops, the ugliest guy (#1) gets up, walks past me and sits in the seats of 4 next to the girls. ugliest guy #1 swings his arms around wildly enough to catch his friends' attention but also make it look like he wasn't doing anything. yeah and the arm waving shit failed but his friends decided to sit next to him.
the ugly rockers tried to talk loud so the girls could hear but the whole effin carriage could hear it.
ugly guy #2 'oh yeah what about that kick ass beach shit your talking about? the thing you went to? i hear it was cool as'
ugly guy #1 'urhhh... OH that! right... um... yeah it was awesome. there was hot babes diggin me an--'
the girls laughed historically
ugly guy #2 'umm excuse me? but are you laughing at us?'
ugly guy #3 'urhh yeah are you?'
ugly guy #1 'thats not very nice you know? we're trying to have a conversation here'
girl #2 'oh nothing.. we're not laughing at you...'
the girls nod and giggle.
after 5 seconds it was quite and i was about to burst out laughing at how crap these guys were at making a move. i could fucking do better, ive learnt from the master... TUCKER MAX. lol jokes but i could still do better.
i looked at the second girl and she caught me eye. she mouthed words to me and she kept making eye signals for me to move closer to her, as close as sitting in the seat in front of her. LOL
i got up and started slowly, SLOWLY walking to the doors. the girls turned and stared at me, started whispering and then they stopped. the third girl whispered something to the second and she started making eye signals again. the rockers just went silent and stared at me, then back at the girls.
then the train stopped, doors went *beep, beep, beep* the girls were expecting me to come and sit down but i walked out. ROFLMAO. i knew that they were all like wtf.
when the train was about to leave i looked into the carriage windows and i could see the 3 girls laughing and waving to me like no tomorrow. i was like ngaww they love me LOL so i waved back and mouthed the word 'bye'. the girls sitting closest to the window saw and they were like 'omfg we got a wave back ahahahaa'
i got on the 82 tram, stopped in front of hp and walked to jenny's place. i rang the door bell twice and looked up.. there was an effin hole in the roof big enough to fit a fat person in there. yeah she smelt like bed cause i just woke her up. teehee. lol jenny tackled me so i wouldnt go in her room cause it was messy but i just pulled her in with me and it was messy. i gave her something that i wrote for her. she read it, cried and tried to hide the tears under her sheets. lol. not cry as in a bad way, i think she was happy or something, not sure. lol it wasnt my fault, didnt think that she would cry.
grrr cant be fucked writing the rest of this. screw it. this is all im typing. someday i might be stuffed writing the rest of this... which is most likely not to happen..
peace out
im just too late. i wish i hadn't of said those words, cause if i hadn't, we would be. GRR! fuck. im effiin kicking myself in the ass for that everyday! but if i did then i would never get over you.
well, at least i know for sure who your first love was..
this is shattering shit
lollipops... here i come
make me slowly die
ima fucking [read title] even though it hurts
tryna keep everything in and together
(: smile everyday peoples
its aights to let it out once in a while. it's part of being human
we're all trying to map our soul
i wish i had friends. i do, but... how do i know if they really are or not? am i being back stabbed? where are the friends to go out and spend time with? what am i to people?
i know for sure that i am obnoxious
wow i havnt writen a blog in a while... :3
its time to make one again :D
blahoafjkasdbfkabgoaiebgiabglakbg
good bye linh loi nguyen have a safe&fun trip to jpn
hrmmm...
um... well its almost the end of school?
i cant wait even though im probably not gonna do anything cause
1. im lazy
2. i hardly talk to anyone anymore for them to invite me out
now that i look at reason number 2 i seriously dont know who to turn to if things go wrong ): even if they say 'i'll be there for you if you need me' it seems like i will be a burden to them if i do turn to them
right now im listening to epik high songs
i effin love their songs, the beats, the raps, the lyrics, i dont know its good
i really like their love songs. so emo lol but it expresses what i feel
urhhh..
i dont know but i felt really down today and i didn't talk much in school
i felt really bad since yesterday on the train i know i hurt kathy D:
im sorryyyy kathy if you ever read this!
and im scared if jenny might change her views on me now
ahaha my mum just made me dinner and bought it into my room. she thinks that im doing homework but im actually writting this
anyways today after school it was effin raining
and you know what? i walked by myself to station cause 'friends' didnt wait for me and walked without me
i feel so loved
i decided to go through the front gate cause if i went through the back gate my foot would get soaked but either way my left foot got a bath in its shoe (yes it has a massive hole)
even before half way down the road that the school is on i was soaking
my hair was dripping, my blazer smelt like dog, my foot felt mushy and you know what else happens?
some random middle eastern faggot decides to drive in the puddle held together by the speed hump and gutters
this tsunami sized wave splashes on me and makes me even more wet than i am. i stood there for one second, looked at myself and held out my arms and said 'what the fuck you fucking kunt?'. i was about to run after the car and yell out a few curse words but he reversed, apologised and asked if i was okay. i smiled and said yeah since he had the decency to do that, but watch out kunt one day if im driving in my car and i see you riding a bike on the road.. ohh im gonna god damn hit you over and knock your brains out with my baseball bat.
well after that i crossed that hectik campus road or whatever its called, i headed down the station and my mum calls me and omfg i couldnt even grab my phone out of my pocket. i was that soaked that my pants held onto my hand. yes, it sounds like magic but thats what happened. more like gripped. i told my mum to pick me at the library at 5 and i started walking there.
i found alyssa in there and she said omfg your soaked. no i shit i was and she laughed and just pointed to her umbrella ): i got something to eat from broady and walked back to matt, alyssa and the other dude (i forgot his name) on the comps then got told off by the security guard for being at the comp with too many people. went up stairs to study instead but effin hell the tables were taken too so i sat on the couchs and it felt really weird cause i was wet from head to toe and it felt like some cold water bubble was surrounding me with a wet diaper.
when the tables were free i literally tackled the table and the chairs surrounding it claiming it was mine and yelled out that anyone who touchs it will die getting butt fucked by me (exaggeration). nah well i did get a seat at one with alyssa and i was in a 'cant-be-fucked/fuck-my-life' mode so i randomly started calling people but when they did pick up i wasnt bothered to talk so i just hung up on them. hrmm.. yeah i went home.. and this is where i am now, typing this while listening to epik high. cbf typing anymore. me needs to shhhhower
peace out hommiees (L)
;_; nothing will bring you back
the hardest i try wont bring me anything
it'll just be 'awww you're so cute' or something similar to that
this just fucking totally sucks
all the damned drinks in my house sucks shit
shots. fucking hell shots SHOOT ME! KILL ME ALREADY!
fuck.. ive gotta get you out of my system
stupid virus.. go away.. i hate love
i'm happy but also a bit disappointed. i can't really describe what i feel right now but i'm pretty sure it's a good thing
fucking prick
god what the fuck is your problem?
i said im doing my homework
next time you touch me my baseball bat is going through your head
im pretty sure that your fucked up brains will drop out of you damned head before my bat can get a dint in it
asshole
you know that the EVERYONE thinks that we will do better without you
what the fuck happened to 'im going vn to find a new wife' idea?
you come back empty handed
it shows that no one in this world wants you cause your so fucked up
someone told me you had a girlfriend in your younger years
how is that even possible?
she must of been really shit housed to see the hypocritical, raging dickhead you are
even your eldest son and daughter cant even stand being a meter near you..
i really make an effort not to like you
it's getting old and i need someone to lean and rely on
hope i move houses soon cause i need somewhere to begin and start fresh
a place where people i know don't know
a place where i only know
so if you have time spend it with me somewhere we only know
yeah i read your blogs LOL
i feel so much like a stalker ><and yeah you (and pokeeuge) INSPIRED me to make one *flames in the eyes from inspiration*
your blogs are pretty good (Y)
i actually look forward to reading them?
maybe, just maybe..! if you disliked me or didn't care for me more than you do now
maybe i wouldn't like you
i could move on
it'll make sure that there would be no u-turns and no regrets
it would kill me but hey, it could be easier in ways
Last night I had a dream about you
In this dream I'm dancing right beside you
And it looked like everyone was having fun
the kind of feeling I've waited so long
Don't stop come a little closer
As we jam the rythm gets stronger
There's nothing wrong with just a little little fun
We were dancing all night long
The time is right to put my arms around you
You're feeling right
You wrap your arms around too
But suddenly I feel the shining sun
Before I knew it this dream was all gone
Ooh I don't know what to do
About this dream and you
I wish this dream comes true
Ooh I don't know what to do
About this dream and you
We'll make this dream come true
Why don't you play the game ?
Why don't you play the game ?
darren chhuon
i heard of him about 3 months after he passed away
he was everywhere especially on youtube
after a while i gave in and watched one of the videos
i looked at the comments and all of them said the same thing; R.I.P
i was eager to find out how he passed away
so i went clicking on all other videos
it stated that he died saving his friends
there was a video that his friend made in memory of darren
i watched that and i cried so hard although i didn't know him
it made me seriously dehydratedhis favourite song before he passed away was city of my heart by lil eddie
i downloaded this song in memory of him
he died as a hero and his legend will live on
he paid the ultimate sacrifice
i want to meet you
i know soon enough i will
in search of an old music video?
made somewhere in 2001-2006
house/electronic
it's about this guy and this girl and they were deeply in love and she bought him red chucks as a gift. later she left him. now he dances from dusk to dawn at that very place where she left him to get her back. there are a crowd of about 5 people watching him and they had funny comments. it went something like this:
guy#1 - why is he dancing? is it for money? cause i see no money
guy#2 - no he dances for this girl he loves but she left him ages ago. he always dances in those red chucks. she got it for him.
(they all look at the chucks. it looks old and ragged and there's duck tape around it)
guy#1 - who's the girl? where is she?
guy#2 - i don't know
guy#3 - i heard she got killed
guy#4 - i heard she got hit by a truckgirl#1 - i heard she got struck by lighting
it's cute how he dances to get her back and the guy dances really good too :D
I FOUND IT!! :D yayers its called 'days go by' by dirty vegas
my sister found it for me (:
when we reached the station linh went to the car park to get picked up while the rest of us headed to the library. alyssa, linda, maryanne and me went to the library while kathy walked straight to her ride. we played a bit in there, looked at the science projects set up there by our school and then stole some of ralph's and vinh's sparklers from their project. we didn't have lighters on us so we walked across to broady to buy matches and drinks. me and alyssa brought 10 boxes of matches for 2 bucks from woolworths-how cheap-while linda and maryanne stood at the entrance.
we saw matt, i thought he was one of those rebel guys who smoke and stuff so i expected he would have a cigarette and lighter but he doesn't and he says that he isn't a rebel. im suprised. we grabbed 2 drinks and massive bag of chips and walked to back to the library.
in there matt went on a computer on the ground floor while the rest of us talked, ate, drank and mucked around at the tables up stairs. alyssa showed us the things she got on soompi online orders while i read chobits. soon, alyssa went to get on a comp and maryanne left to catch her bus. there was only me and linda left at the tables, i borrowed chobits and linda went to go take a piss.
we headed down stairs. got bored again and walked outside to light the sparklers in broad daylight. it was super windy out there i could have gotten blown away. we failed lighting them like a hundred times before it sparked. matt and alyssa was scared of them. lol
linda was uber hyped about them and wanted more so we walked to broady again to buy them from the reject shop. before we got them we stopped at crispy creme and talked to anna and we also ran into natsha. we returned back to crispy creme and matt, aylssa and anna started talking while me and linda helped out with work-blowing up the balloons. when we left we got 6 donuts for doing the work. my dad called to pick me and linda up since today i didn't wanna take the bus home. cbs.
on our way home we passed by linda's place, she dropped her stuff at home got her laptop and homework. when i got home i ran to my parents bedroom to say hi to my mum. :D she just woke up from sleep.
i jumped on my comp and tranferred all my things onto linda's laptop and then watched the ugly truth. two hours later my parents woke up from napping and told me and linda to make dinner. me cutting the broccoli was epik fail. i didn't know how to do it and neither did linda. my mum walked on me and linda cutting the broccoli and was like 'wtf are you doing? wtf thats not how you do it. omg its this simple' she cut them all in 2 minutes. ==" jeez it took me 15 minutes to cut one bunch.
we sat down for dinner and my mum talked about vietnam and the funeral of her mother's and she got 2 spirit tellers or something to come to my grandma's house so my dead grandpa could visit. it was amazing my grandpa was in the spirit tellers body while the other one described what my housed looked like and where it was and translated what my grandpa was trying to say (and none of them has never been here). she said the address, it was on a hill, the backyard was small with a washing line, the couch was red and squishy with a big tv, a white fridge and she could see me studying in my room. she spirit teller said that she liked the house but she said that my grandpa didn't because of the location and where the sun was rising from. my grandpa said it would be too difficult to live in that house because the sun should rise where the front door is to show the money where to go through and if it isn't you will have trouble with money (and says that we need to move houses). and its true we do have problems with money, heaps. another reason why my grandpa doesn't like this place because apparently there is a ghost hunting the land, a little girl who died in the house before this one. my grandpa said that i will become something like a doctor (and i am im working up to something to do with health and food) and he said that i will be more successful than my brother and sister. and there was this other weird thing that my mum said that the spirit teller said, that i was on the boat to australia with my dad, mum, sister and brother (but i've never even been on a boat before and my mum, sister and brother didn't come on a boat...). for 10 minutes my mum explained to me that everyone who will exist in this world will be tied together by 'strings of soul' or something. and yeah when i 'was' on the boat, everyone felt sick except me which means that im the 'strongest' out of my family. yes an interesting story my mum bought home... and i do believe everything was told and im totally going nag my dad to move houses :D
me and linda did the dishes and my grandma (father's mother), uncle bao and my little cousin jessie came over. they talked to my mum while me and linda played with jessie. linda really, really wanted to light the sparklers so we did, we were going to take jessie with us but couldn't cause jessie was sick, cold and uncle didn't let us. then after that uncle, grandma and jessie went home and took linda home too. i took a shower and this is where i am now. write this.
LOLOLOL
reading this now.. it really doesn't make much sense
but i still know what im talking about
today i woke up at about... well my alarm off at 6.40 but i got out of bed at 7.40. yes, i like to stay in bed specially in winter when your bed is like a hot shower, but way drier (except if you're a guy). um my dad didn't to work today, i think he made it his day off work to go pick up my mum from the airport. my grandmother passed away on thursday 2 weeks ago and my mum made a impulsive get-on-the-next-plane-to-vn decision.
well yeah i got out of bed at 7.40 got dressed and ate some muesli with milk since my sister doesn't like me having cheerios for breakfast. apparently its too sugary and it doesn't keep me filled for longer, buts its sooo nice :D while i was eating i was making my lunch too. when i finished both tasks in making my lunch and eating my breakfast i went into the bathroom to primp myself up.
my sister just had a shower since she didn't come home until after i fell asleep after 2.30. that damn bytch left me to fend for myself in the lonely house while she watched some play with her friends. im always friggen lonely even on msn. i hardly talk to people anymore. well yeah i was home-alone which was pretty scary since i knew that no one was heading home to see me or take care of me, you could have just walked home into my dead body from eating rat poison. jenny was suppose to call me but she got upset again with something so she didn't. her call was suppose to take away the stupid feeling of being lonely.
im getting sidetracked, well yeah she was in the bathroom and i was brushing my teeth and she randomly just turns and looks at me and says 'you need a hair cut'. well thanks you havnt you noticed all the hair lying around the bathroom last week? i have cut my hair. ==" after a while she lifts up the longest part of my hair which is my tail (which is near my right ear) and sees my piercings. she had an 'omfg-wtf-no-way' face on. she stops and says 'what is this?'
i ask her 'what is what? what are you talking about?'. she points out the piercings. i know she doesn't want me to have piercing but so what? you can't stop me. it's my life i can do whatever. it's not like to the extreme or something or im breaking a law. i say 'oh yeah piercings'. she questions me about them and then asks if mum and dad knows. i said 'oh yeah mum totally knows (but which she doesn't except for one) but dad doesn't.' she greased me and walked out of the bathroom. i know she hates it but what can you do? she can't rip it out of my ear.
i went into the kitchen and watched a bit more of tv before my brother came to take me to school. i swear his car trips to school or any where else is always crazy. the other time he almost killed me by purposely trying to crash some bitch into his car. it was funny as caz she was shitting her pants but still trying to take it like a man. yeah we picked up linda on the way to school and was late.
the first 2 periods were s.o.s.e history. boring shit. today i didn't sit next to jinno like i usually would so i sat next to joanne and maryanne. i don't know he seems to be pissing me off lately. he really doesn't take much things seriously and everytime a teacher would be explaining something he would say random things like penis, delicious, vagina or make moaning sounds. i wish he would take his work a bit more seriously.
at recess i was eating an apple and i got bored and squeezed kimsa's up and go drink and it went everywhere on her and she kinda got pissed at me. im sorry kimsa for doing that. then l overheard bao talking about correct uniform it kinda got me pissed and told him to shut up and he got pissed off at me too. i don't know he takes everything too seriously and he planning way too early in life. i mean you can but he's not living life to the fullest at the same time. he's not taking risks and obeys every command that he's parents give. he didn't tell his parents why he need to go scouts to get the badge. he did but didn't explain why. he needs to give a bit of the seriousness to jinno and jinno should give some of his chill-everything-is-going-workout-fine style to bao. im sorry bao for saying shut up for no reason.
the next 2 periods were food tech. we were suppose to be cooking but our teacher was away so it was full theory work. what a drainer and its even worse because that classroom gives me heyfever caz it never gets cleaned.
lunch. we searched up lady gaga's balls on jinno's iphone. ate my lunch, ate chocolate, christian got me a hotdog (it was only given to year 11's) and other random things people were feeding me.
period 5&6 was science and math. science was boring. me, joanne, maryanne, jinno and davis we're doing nothing cause the teacher thought we did all the work cause we're asian.
math was shit. i had a stomach ache from eating too much so i kinda slept through that class. i got up 15 minutes before the bell went and jamie fucking fairbanks decides to bag me for no reason after i commented on something and it wasn't even offending. fucking hypocrite brock laughs so hard his about to piss his pants and then stops and says 'nah im sorry i just noticed it was offending'. jamie now thinks he top shit for a minute so he starts bagging jessica e. she gets just as pissed off as me. i say to jamie that his mum shitted out a face full of bullshit but he doesn't hear because he thinks he's too good. the class hears the whole thing because we were shouting this from across the room. stupid amanda says 'omfg why are you fighting? just leave it yes and you suck tracey' in her high pitched voice (she didn't really say that i sucked but what she said kinda translates to that). the class tells her to shut the fuck up and i put my head back down because at the point my stomach was killing me. everyone thinks im crying and jamie starts act all innoncent and as if he hasn't even done anything and starts shouting out 'its you're fault anyways you always start the things. im sorry it was a joke'. everyone tells jamie to shut up and leave it and i hear jessica telling me not to listen to him cause he's a dickhead. jamie says sorry and it was a joke again. i look at him and stick up my finger and say 'fucking just fucking leave me alone im fucking sick' and i put my head back down. the teacher looks up and says 'hey lanugage and jamie leave her alone you're getting a monday if you don't. you should respect her, shes sick'. he turns to me and asks me if i would like to go the sick bay but i didn't see a point when there was only 10 minutes left. i rested until the bell went for homeroom. i stood there talking to ralph, joanne and i think reymar. jamie comes up to me and apologizes. i blankly stare at him and say 'why do you always pick up things? like are you trying to pick up some sort of fight? i didn't even say anything offending so why are you starting shit for?' he says 'but it was a joke'. i say 'what sort of joke is that? it was offending. you don't see me laughing? so it's obviously not one to me. stop trying to pick up shit jamie'. he was like okay, okay, alright, im sorry and walked away. he looked no where near sorry.
after homeroom i walked to the station with alyssa, linda, kathy, maryanne and linh...
finding out that jessie and huy are dating hurts
that 'unloved' feeling all comes rushing back to me once again
i feel lonely and like there's nothing where my heart is suppose to be
and there goes the bell for my dinner...
10.51 home-alone talking to no one
not even the people on msn (except one but she started the convo)
walking to get my dinner the pressure on my heels, toes and the rest of my foot feels good
and makes me want to walk a million more miles until it bleeds
maybe that will help take away the pain of being lonely and unloved
i can't believe i was excited to see you
first you hardly even made any eye contact
then you ran away from me
i felt like a monster or something strapped with bombs
like hugging me was dangerous and i could just explode in any second of any sort of contact
when you ran away it was pretty shattering
i've spent my whole time knowing you chasing after you
im over it and i don't wanna chase after you anymore
even though i still kinda do
i really don't wanna see you again
because every time i do this is how i end up feeling
and another thing!
i cant believe you (someone else not the same person) expected me to wait out side for 2 hours until the movie ended
jeez what a fucking friend you are
+ (i forgot to add this but) the whole time i felt lonely and left out
i think it's because you told me that you only thought of me as your friend
im not really angry or sad
i think that's why im taking this well
not all crying in the sad corner and throwing hissy fits
but i still got a load of questions to ask you piled up in the back of my mind
it's almost over
i can feel it
i just know it just a little while more
i don't want someone else
the thought of it hurts me already
but it's been going on for too long
and nothing has come back good
it just ends up hurting meto get back up and start all over again
it has to reach the limit
and experience the most heart piercing pain
and i just passed it
i know i did
i can feel it in my heart and bones
i don't know why but i'm sort of thankful
i don't feel angry
but i feel a smear of sadness is across my face and heart
When you long with all your heart for someone to love you, a madness grows there that shakes all sense from the trees and the water and the earth. And nothing lives for you, except the long deep bitter want. And this is what everyone feels from birth to death.
- Denton Welch
Journal, 8 May 1944, 11.15 p.m
i said i don't think you're going to hear from me for a while
i apologised
the bottom last thing stated was i was going to accept calls but i was not going to answer text messages
i know your hurt
im sorry
i dont know how long this is going to be
but there's a reason and the reason is you
i have a feeling that this 'im-not-going-to-talk-to-anymore' thing isn't going to last very long
something about you just keeps pulling me in
but i haven't been quite able to put my finger on it...
i ambled slowly around the block and then sat on the front stoop
i like to sit on the top step and look down on the people and dogs passing by
especially late on a summer night-it's like a slow parade
a young man and woman walked past-a handsome young man and pretty young woman
the man in a seersucker suit and the woman in an old-fashioned summer dress-and they were walking a bit apart from one another with a space between them
and the man was looking straight ahead and the woman had her arms crossed against her chest, hugging herself, looking down at her feet, at her toes that peeked out the open fronts of her shoes
and they both had the same gleefully suppressed smile on their faces
and i knew that they freshly in love
perhaps they had fallen in love having dinner in some restaurant with a garden or tables on the sidewalk
perhaps they had not even kissed yet
and they thought they had their whole lives to walk close together, touching, and wanted to anticipate the moment they touched for as long as possible
and they passed by without noticing me
something about watching them made me feel sad
i think it was too lovely:
the summer night, the opened-toed shoes, their face rapt with momentarily tamped-down joy
i felt i had witnessed their happiest moment, the pinnacle, and they were already walking away from it, but they did not know it
yesterday i had a conversation with a random girl who had added me on msn a few nights before
she started the conversation with 'hi'
it was so out of the blue that i skipped 'hi' and went straight to 'who's this'?
i said 'what up'? cause i noticed what i said before sounded a bit unfriendly
i then asked where she lived
she said 'merryland'
and i was like okay, wtf i never knew there could be a place called merryland
is it like christmas all year round?
the next thing i said was 'WHO ARE YOU?' in capital letters
a bit demanding aren't i? :D
well i was really curious, what can i say?
she totally skipped that question and asked 'wht ur name?'
i was like omfg not one of these msn addicts that shortens every word in the english dictionary even if they are already short enough
cause like... i seriously do have trouble understanding what they say half of the time...
hense i usually say something stupid
but anyways
because at that time i was still doing my homework and i had my pen in my hand and that pen was made by Jordi Labanda
so i was like wait... this could be a stalker! no way im giving my real name this early, so i used 'Jordi'
i asked like about like 3 more questions and she full on ignores them and answered one question
'where did you get my msn from'?
she said bebo
i knew she got it from there but i had to ask for confirmation
i then tell her that i live in broadmeadows (but which i really dont, its the closest suburb next to me)
i tell her my school, age and year level
i ask her which state she lives in and she says 'pattn'
i was like WTF? okay there is no 'pattn' in Australia is she some sort of foreigner???
and then straight after that she asks me which school i go to
I JUST SAID IT omg i think my eye balls were gonna pop out of there sockets from frustration and strain
i ask her again 'which state do you live in'?
she replies 'pattn'
i try to give a good example...
i say 'I LIVE IN VICTORIA!' (LOL)
dude. i basically felt like i was talking to an alien..
i think this girl adds randoms..
i ask 'which city is closest to you?'
she says 'nah. wait'
and she goes offline on me
i say to myself 'i think she blocked me'
...
i log onto bebo and type in her msn
it comes up with a profile
its hers
i click into her album and looked at the photos on the side displaying all her photos but smaller
and i was like full on wtf
all her photos were dark and you couldn't see shit
i returned to her homepage and clicked on comment
i typed up something on the lines of this...
'ey f*cking b*tch you can't f*cking block me and think that i'll never leave you alone
you f*cking added me on bebo. dumb kunt
im apparently one of your "friends" now
you better unblock me b*tch'
i had my cursor on the post comment
and i thought nahhh... i wont do that... i'm not that mean! i'll just wait until she comes back online
if she doesnt in... a... few days...or so...i'll post it!
i highlight everything and deleted it and typed 'who the eff is this? and posted it
i busied myself by replying back to old comments
and continued the small conversation with my niggarr-wee (not meaning anything racist)
i was like hrmmm... merryland... where could that be? i search it on google maps and it says that it is in nsw
i said to myself is this the so called 'pattn'?
the random girl comes back online and says 'hello again'
(shes lucky that i didnt post that comment. oh wells i could have and then deleted it :D)
i ask her 'do you live in nsw'?
she says 'yeah. i think so'
...
OMFG ALL THIS TIME!!
what a waste
i say 'you're making my blood pressure rise' and 'you made me break a blood vessel over finding where you live when you could of simply said nsw'
i was.. i dont know sort of laughing it off but like shattered in the inside... *shakes head*
i ask her how old she is and she says 14
...
moral:
don't talk to fobs
this is the reason why i hate talking to fob asians
its so hard...
and..
oh fuck it =="
no point explaining. you'll get what i mean...
...
(i never actually got her name until our next conversation)
hey jimmy, did you see us at south melbourne beach on the 30th of december 2009? hehe i thought that, of everyone coming that day for you but kathy and kimsa told everyone to come so yeah but anyways hoped you liked seeing our faces there for you. oh, oh and did you see that photo that kathy, han, rachael, lyn and i took in photoplus? ahahaha. we took that for you! i usually wouldn't go in there but it was for you so it was okay.
